Secret Subject Swap: September 4th, 2015
Hello and Happy Friday!!!
Welcome to a Secret Subject Swap. This week 16 brave bloggers picked a secret subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging our topics and submitting our posts.
My secret subject is:
Stream of Conscious: Write for 10 minutes. Talk about your day, your thoughts, what you're dreaming of, what you're scared of. Just write and don't stop for a good 10 minutes.
It was submitted by: House of J Chronicles-- thank you!
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It is hot as balls in the house. Mom is freezing though, so I would rather be hot than have her anymore uncomfortable than she has been lately. Not sure if it has anything to do with her congestive heart failure, probably so-something with circulation-I'll have to ask the cardiologist next week.
Speaking of next week, I have to get my planner out and write down all her appointments off the calendar. I can't believe it is already September. This year has flown by, but then again it always does. I need to plan something for mom's birthday, I just hope she's feeling better by then to actually enjoy it.
Enjoy. Enjoyable. Life should be enjoyable. Why can't I just be happy? Why can't there be some amazing switch that I can flick so my feelings can match the smile I pin to my face? Why is it hard to admit I struggle? It's okay to not be okay. This we need to say more. We need to support those who feel broken and damaged and love them harder...not make them feel like a freak for simply feeling their feelings.
I find I worry about everyone else's happiness and contentment and push mine to the back burner. I can find beauty in everyone else and everything around me but I can't find redeeming qualities or beauty in myself. It's pretty damn sad, especially when I truly believe and know the importance of knowing and owning your self-worth.
One day I'll get there.
Ugh, today is my day off, but I have so much running around to do I think I'd rather be at work. I'm refusing to adult for a little longer, instead I'm going to cuddle my husband and dog who are peacefully sleeping next to me for a few more minutes. These little things, these little moments are my favorite. It is nice to be able to get lost in a moment of cuddling and not have to worry or plan allthedamnthingsintheworld. I wouldn't say they necessarily make life
worthwhile but damn...they sure do help put things in perspective of what is important.
Okay...that has been my ten minute stream of consciousness...I hope it makes sense and think it's an awesome tool. Maybe not for writing fodder...but helps you look and see whats truly on your mind...and heart.