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Not Where I Want To Be.

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"The fact that you aren’t where you want to be, should be motivation enough".
That is definitely motivating.
But also exhausting.  
Sometimes you try all you know. And you yo-yo. You go back and forth. You try your best…but even with all your effort your bests sometimes are not good enough. You need to stop, take a breather and reset.  
Tomorrow at this time, I should almost be out of surgery for the gastric sleeve.
Since I was a child I have battled with my weight.  I have recently started to take care my health in the most recent years. I have lost weight, gained it back, lost it again, gained stamina, fell in love with the outdoors, gained some back, gotten into therapy…and started to figure out what is going on in my head so I knew the best way to approach…myself.
At this point, I need to do something different and something drastic. It's not for lack of trying-but I need a tool to help me get to where I want to be.
I am too in love with life to not be able to do the stuf…

Sunday Confessions: Shift

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Shit happens.

And, therefore a shift needs to happen.

Life, no matter how much we love it and enjoy it, will disappoint us. Our hearts will be broken, our favorite show will be canceled, we will not get the job we wanted, our laundry will be dyed an ungodly red from a stray towel we forgot about, we will make mistakes and lose friends. On a heavier note...we will fall into a deep depression or be riddled with anxiety, we will not trust ourselves and miss out on amazing opportunities or we will lose those we love and encounter a pain that should be reserved for only the cruelest souls. Our lives tends to be full of little surprises we weren't counting on dealing with...but here we are, navigating and needing to retrace our steps and relearn this dance of life. 

There is no way we will always get what we want or need. Even when we have all our ducks in a row, sometimes a semi comes barreling down the road and smashes them to smithereens.

There will be days where nothing will go right ex…

Sunday Confessions: Center

Writing, amidst the rest of its magical qualities, has the gift of letting people tap into their emotions as well as write them away when they are overwhelming. It is an art to say the least but also a need.

It has become such an intricate and intimate way to communicate with one another. Rarely do we pick up the phone to talk but rather we send a text and in seconds it is delivered. Those words on a screen can make or destroy a human being. 

Think I am being dramatic? 

Have you ever been desperate to hear from someone that you check your phone repeatedly, check their social media to see if they are still posting, check every way they have ever communicated with you...just to make sure that you were not missing something? When in  fact, you were just missing them. Because even though words can be powerful, the absence of them can be immensely shattering. 

When we become so elated or destroyed when someone reaches out to us or stops, it is because we have given them power over our hearts. …